Dream

Ugh.... had a dream last night... not good.
I've pretty much forgotten most of it when I woke up, and I've been trying to remember it throughout the day but without much luck.

Not sure what was happening, I think I was at some sort of party, at a house (cos I remember there were stairs), an old western looking house, and for some reason there were girls from my old school there. and there he was, with his friends, just standing at the back of the room. I didn't want to be seen (but I think we both knew each other was there) so I hid in an empty room. I didn't want to be seen, I think is because I was scared, I didn't know how he would react, and I didn't want him to think I was having a good time (because of the guilt that I keep feeling, I don't think I should be happy).

I sat in the room by myself, reading a book which appears to be 'Alice in Wonderland' but I just couldn't take the words in, cos I kept reading the same bit over and over again. For some reason I had to go into the main room where the party was (actually it maybe because I needed to get the book), and when I pass him (knowing that he saw me and was probably looking at me the whole time), he started to fake a cough, he coughed for the whole time I was in the room, I was so uncomfortable I wanted to get the hell away from the place as soon as possible. I think he was doing it to let his friends know that I was there, or something, I don't have a clue, maybe it's just my dream being weird cos, well, that's obviously not what he would do in real life. Ugh it was awful, at least thats what I felt for half the afternoon after I woke up.