troubled

What should I do?
I know I need to do it, I need to do it now, but I can't.
I'm so useless, I thought I've set my mind to it, I was going to do it when the time comes, but I keep hesitating, I keep avoiding it. But it's come to a point where I can't avoid it any longer. It is either I do it, or it might be the end of it.
I hate this situation I'm in now, I keep thinking I should have not gone back the last time, that way things would have been easier, and I wouldn't be in the same situation again.

There is so much that a person could take, there is a point where that person can't take anymore, they break, their heart breaks, and that would be the end.

I can't keep doing that. I've hurt him so many times, and I promised not to do that any more.

I need to have faith in this, I need to believe it, I need to believe it's the right thing and it's what I want, I need to have the strength...

This is what I decided when I turned back, this is what I decided to be what I want, this is what I need to do.